Ryan got his very first haircut and I was proud of him for acting like such a big boy and not even crying (except for about five seconds when he first saw the buzzer).
We became even more involved with our two playgroups, one that meets weekly on Fridays and the other that has events randomly throughout the month. These are some of the sweetest mommies!
We participated in several mommy and me classes, visited a local holiday train display (which Ryan adored), attended a holiday cookie swap, and enjoyed many playdates with friends.
We also got to see a bunch of family members at the Christmas party. There are so many little ones at our family gatherings now! It reminds me of when my cousins and I used to play together as kids, and now it is our children doing the exact same things.
Unfortunately, this past week we were told that there are not any more treatment options available for my mom and that we needed to call hospice to prepare for the end. After almost three years of fighting metastatic colon cancer, which had already spread to her liver and lungs at the time of diagnosis, my mom’s body is now shutting down. She has suffered more than anyone should ever have to, and she did it all for the sole purpose of spending a longer time with her family.
We have tried to make my mom as comfortable as possible in her own home, and I have been spending the days and also nights with her, in order to give her medicines every 2 to 4 hours and to calm her down when she gets upset. It is absolute torture for me to watch my beautiful mommy and best friend go through this amount of physical, mental, and emotional pain. Sometimes she recognizes who we are and other times she doesn’t. I am just praying for her to find peace, whether that be here on earth (in the form of a miracle recovery) or in heaven with God. I just don't know how I will manage without her, I love her so very much.